Robin Williams passed away yesterday. Underneath the 30+ years of film and television roles was a man who hid his demons well.
I know what it is like to have those same demons. They are what Sally Brampton refers to in her 2009 memoir, Shoot The Dam Dog as “The Throat Monster”.
The Throat Monster is insidious. It does not stay on your throat for long. It wraps itself around your mind and your consciousness. It tells you everything you’ve ever done wrong. It constantly repeats that you are alone in the world, that there is no reason to wake up in the morning.
You may have it all. Supportive family and friends, a solid career, maybe even your children that you adore and would do anything for. But you still feel like there is nothing to live for.
I have lived with depression for years. I look in the mirror every day and I see the stranglehold that the depression has on me.
I know that I am not alone in my feelings. If you feel the way that I do, get help. Not just for you and your loved ones, but for the rest of us. If you can get help and find the joy in life, then maybe the rest of us can.