When one lives with mental illness, the best one can hope for is an emotionally even keel day.
Today was not one of those days. I had a moment today that triggered my depression. While I will not get into the details, I will say that I was not a happy camper when I left the office.
Depression is like a ball and chain that one is forever dragging around. The key to unlock it is nowhere to be found and there is no metal smith to break the chain. Depending on how the day has gone, the ball can vary in weight, but it never ceases to weigh me down.
As I write this post, it’s nearly 10:00 in the evening. The day and the trigger are over.
But the depression remains.
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Writergurlny 
Sorry to hear this. I’m also in the depths of depression right now and have been since Thanksgiving. Hoping things get back to “normal” for you soon.
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It sounds like the migraines I get – at first the pain is intense and scary and then only a dull pain remains. Sorry about the trigger. Hope happy feelings are triggered soon.
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I am sorry. It takes true bravery to live with the challenge and difficulty of mental illness. I admire you for having the courage to write about it.
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