Loss is a natural part of life. We’ve all lost someone or something. I’ve been thinking about the five stages of grief and how it has become helpful in dealing with this loss and challenge that I am experiencing.
1. Denial-It couldn’t happen to me, I worked too hard for it to happen.
2. Anger- Why me? What did I do that was so wrong? It’s their fault. It was a 50/50 relationship, I can only take what they have given me.
3. Bargaining- I would give anything to go back and undo the choice I made. Something inside of me knew it wasn’t right, but I took the chance anyway.
4.Depression- What’s point of all this? I try and try and all I get is rejection and failure. They don’t see the person who can accomplish the goals they set, they only see a few lines on a piece of paper.
5. Acceptance- There is nothing I can do, as much as I wish I could to go back and undo my mistake. I am proud of myself for trying, it was not easy. I took a risk and the risk did not turn out as I hoped. But I learned a lot and I can only move forward from here. It sounds very cliche, but when one door closes another opens.
I just don’t know when that door will open and that is the scary part.