The thing about mental health issues is that they are not obvious. It’s not the same as wearing a cast for a month to heal a broken leg. Just because someone is smiling on the outside does not mean that there isn’t a torrent of emotions on the inside. I think there are a lot of people who try to understand, but they really don’t.
It is often seen as the only way to get rid of the pain. As difficult as that is to comprehend, it is the truth. I don’t know why he did what he did. But it was obviously a sign of deeper issues that remained unresolved.
I wish that he had talked to someone before making the ultimate decision. Whatever he was going through, he felt like there was one way to make it stop.
My heart goes out to the people who knew his best. May his memory be a blessing. Z”L.
If you are feeling suicidal, please call 988 or your local crisis helpline. Your life is worth it.