Rejection Hurts, Especially When One Lives With Depression

One of the telltale signs of depression is low self-esteem and feelings of worthlessness.

Many, if not all of my readers know that depression is my unwanted constant companion.

Recently, I have been trying to put plans together for a potential mini-vacation later this year. The planning of this vacation has not been going as I hoped it would be.

When you live with depression, you live in fear of rejection, whether it is real or imagined. This real rejection that I have been dealing with lately has become another emotional weight on my shoulders.

Logically, I know that this rejection is not personal. But emotionally, this rejection feels personal. It is a reminder that I am worthless and unimportant.

I know that this too shall pass. At some point, the plans for this potential mini-vacation will come together. But until then, the sting of the rejection remains.

Life Is Precious, But Depression Hurts

In local news, two tragedies greeted me this morning.

Lisa Colagrossi was a respected reporter on Channel 7. On Thursday, she died unexpectedly from a brain aneurysm. She was 49.

In the Midwood section of Brooklyn, 7 children ages five to fifteen lost their lives in a house fire. Their parents had 8 children in total, only one survived.

One of the symptoms of depression is suicidal thoughts.  While those suffering from depression realize that we only have one life and should live it to the fullest, it is difficult when we wake up in the morning and are bombarded by thoughts of suicide.

Death is permanent. Life is impermanent. With depression,the sufferer knows that they want to live, but the desire to end it all never completely disappears.